coyoterun

As I read Debra’s blog this morning I thought about that, eating to live, not living to eat!  I think that is the root of my problem, I let food rule my life—well not so much food, as what and how much food.  I’m either worrying about what and how much I ate, or I’m worrying about what if I eat too much of the wrong thing.  I’ve tried the just ignore it way, wound up gaining quite a bit, I’ve tried watching everything I put in my mouth, usually don’t lose much.  The only time I really lost a lot of weight, and managed to keep it off was the time I went on the Nutri-System plan, I lost 50 lb, and I did keep all of that off for 5 years.  But who can afford to stay on that food plan?  Besides even if you can, they won’t let you, they wean you off.  I have never learned how to portion out the right amount I need, having it prepackaged was wonderful, fix it eat all of it and you know you are done.  They have “free” foods you could eat all you wanted, carrots, celery, lettuce, you all know the stuff.  Anyway  I wonder how it would be to measure out you meals, do the prepackaging yourself and freeze them?  Then you could get them out heat the up and eat.  I have a sneaking suspicion that it would come down to being like exercise—-too much trouble.   I think maybe my problem isn’t food—–it’s commitment.  Commitment to doing what I know is the best thing for me to do for myself.  And that goes back to having the right mind set.  I talk and talk, but show no action.  I already know what I need to do—I really don’t need a book or some “famous” person telling me what I already know.  What I need is to find the motivation and guts to make a hard and fast commitment to me, to do what I know is the best thing for me, for my health and happiness.  I wish there was an EASY fix, a pill, or a book that would get it done for me, I know there is not.  I really need to be accountable for my lack of action, words are easy, whether you type them or speak them, I must make a commitment to myself and then hold myself accountable.  I appreciate the support I get here, you all have been or are in the same place I am at, you understand.  I really have to have a good ole fashioned “Come to Jesus” meeting with me, and get a handle on what is is that I really want, what my expectations are and how I am going to get there.   MAKE A PLAN AND STICK TO IT.  That is my new motto.  Being honest with myself and holding me accountable, I think that will work.