coyoterun

It reflects the mood I’ve been in lately.   To say that the thunder and lightening around here have been massive in an understatement!   Seems like nothing is going well these days and my mood is getting more and more “sparky”.  I’m usually a laid back kind of person, don’t get riled up quickly, but when I do all hell breaks loose and then I sulk for days on end.   You’d think that the man I have been married to for 42 years this June would have discovered that by now?   Would you poke at  a really mean snake just to see it hiss?   I swear that some day I am going to lose my mind and murder that man, he is so damn aggravating.   Even his mother says she’ll testify in court on my behalf.   Unfortunately, I tend to eat when I’m upset, so between Tony getting on my last nerve, and my Mom being in the shape she is in, well lets just say that I’m afraid that the scale isn’t going to be showing me any losses anytime soon.  I haven’t eaten the whole pantry clean or made too many inroads into the fridge, but not for lack of wanting too.   I did however get the garden weeded and all the laundry caught up on, and am planning on attacking the windows and fans tomorrow….that old saying about idle hands?  well my idle hands might be filed with food if I’m not careful.  As soon as I get my walking trails mowed, I’ll walk off some of my frustrations, but since the snakes are also enjoy the nice weather, I want clean paths.     

One piece of good news, Josh is able to play a little ball now, his coach is being really nice about letting him get in the game unless it is really tight.  He even got a hit and got on base in one of the games.  The cast is coming off in about 2 weeks.  Also he has found a horse he is very interested in, he had a list of very specific things he wanted and this guy fills nearly every one of them. The gelding is really broke and does tricks, and best of all he is kin to Ace and also to Rachel old horse from when she was a girl, and my gelding that we raised, all very nice horses.  So he is excited, they are going to see him this weekend and if all goes well they  will bring him home.

My Mom is doing much better, being in rehab is hard and tiring, but I know it will be good for her.  Hopefully she will be able to go back home and continue rehabbing there in a couple of weeks.  Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers,   we sure need them.  Have a good rest of the week and have fun this week end. 

   Will you all look at this smile.  Now I realize that not everyone will appreciate a rust bucket like the one in the picture.  But, this is Josh’s project car, he and his Papa are undertaking a very large project.  Tony swears it will teach Josh how to work on cars and make him aware of what it takes to get one running and how much work goes into it.  Hopefully  WHEN he is old enough to get a drivers licenses he’ll take care of it.   At the very least he and T will have some good quality time and it will be one more thing to keep him busy and leave less time for things that could get him into trouble!   I have decided that in my next life, I’m coming back as Tony grandkid, not his wife!  Oh yeah, since I’m a big Mustang fan, wanted one since I was 13, if they get it finished before Josh turns 16, I get to drive the pony!  Hope you all have a great week end.  Take care.

his wrist didn’t move too much while he was waiting for the swelling to go down and they put the cast on it today.  He does have to go back next week to check one more time then it’s just waiting for the thing to heal.  He’s about to go crazy with boredom, getting back to school will help.  After next week he can get back to some exercises to help him keep in playing shape.  Thankfully, his Doctor took him seriously when he asked about accelerated rehab.  I told you all he was SERIOUS about baseball.  If his mom can just keep him corralled for one more week!

After reading Debbi and Debra’s blogs this morning, I found myself wondering why we put so much pressure on ourselves to be perfect.  The perfect wife,mother,daughter; have perfect hair,face, body.  Did you all see the lady on that British version of Idol?  Susan Boyle, you could just see  in those people’s faces because she was older and not very attractive that they were dismissive of any talent she might have.  Boy did she wow them.  I hope they all felt like idjits, she was wonderful and that voice had nothing to do with how she looked.   I’m learning, slowly that I need to accept myself for who I am.  Not for what I weigh or if my hair is grey or brown, or if I have wrinkles or if I’ll ever run a marathon.  I’m a nice person, I’m kind,patient,I’m a good listener, there are lots of things about me to like.  I must stop defining myself by the number I see on my scale.    That’s just a number, something I need to be aware of because of health issues, it’s not a reflection of who I am and I will NOT let it define me.   Now I don’t mean to say that I’m giving up, I still want to lose some pounds but for me the focus will be, lose so I can be healthy, active and around to see my grandson when he makes the Major Leagues.    

Thank you all for your prayers for Josh, he did get to come home from OKC early Sunday morning.  They got his wrist set and splinted.  He goes back Friday for a cast.  Rachel says it was really painful, but they did get it perfectly aligned and you could hardly see the break on X-rays after.  He gets to stay home for this week– can’t have him knocking that thing out.  She said she almost had to kill an x-ray tec at the hospital-thankfully no casualties, she knows more about reading x-rays and how they are done than most lay people–seems like the guy wasn’t taking enough time for Josh to move his arm in position and hurt Josh.  This is not a good thing to do in the presence of him mom!   Anyway after a discussion of how his wrist was broken and the hazards of moving it too quickly, things progressed pretty well.  My daughter is  formidable when she is angry.  Poor Josh, the accident happened at 1:30 and his wrist wasn’t set until about 10:30, and he had a 3 hr. trip to OKC on top of all that. 

As we thought, he was doing something dumb, riding double on an ATV with his 10 yr old step brother.  Dropped his slingshot, decided to lean out and pick it up off the ground as they went by.  Shelton sped up and turned hard right, playing, to keep Josh from grabbing the slingshot, and off Josh went.   Hurt his shoulder and elbow too, but nothing serious, just really sore.  So in the long run he was lucky and I am thankful that he didn’t break his neck.    He is upset that he will miss almost all of this baseball season, I think his team may have 3 games left by the time his cast is off, I don’t think he’ll be in any shape to play then.  I don’t know how much physical therapy he’ll have to do to rehab that wrist.   

Thanks again for your comments and prayers,.  You all are the best.    

This has to be the worst week in a great while, first we lost Ace, my grandson’s horse, today I get a call from my daughter, Rachel, Josh is at the emergency room, broken wrist.  Riding on a small ATV, fell off  tried to catch himself and wham—no baseball, no fishing, no hunting, for at least 6 weeks if he is lucky.  Had to take him to OU Children’s in OKC–not a weird break, but right at the wrist, and needed to be carefully set by a pedi-ortho.    Worst of all he has been told NOT to ride that damn thing, well maybe he’ll learn a lesson.                                                                                                                                                                           My good news is with all the upset during the week, I managed not to eat out the kitchen and maintained my weight.  Now that Easter is by, the weather here will be getting really nice and I AM going to get back to walking outside with my dogs.  I wish you all a very Happy Easter, keep Josh in your prayers please.

 I want to thank all of you that said prayers for my grandson Josh and his horse ACE.  Rachel had to take Ace to the Vet Center at OSU, Stillwater, OK  last night.  She called about 1:30 this morning to let me know that there was no way they could save him, surgery wasn’t even an option.   So we will have him put down.  He had a ruptured gut, and she can’t bring him home, he is in too much pain.    This is hard enough, but Josh won’t even get to say a last goodbye to his beloved Ace,  we always bury our pets and horses on our place and there is no way to get Ace home, this just makes it harder.    As an adult I know if you have animals, you WILL lose them, but knowing that doesn’t make it easier when it happens.  This makes two wonderful horses that Josh has lost.  Holly was a great little quarter pony that he learned to ride on, she lived to be 18, young for a pony, but we felt like she had lived a good life.  Ace was young, just 7 and in his prime.  He and Josh were such a good team and were doing well at the competitions that they attended.  Josh’s interest in competing with his  horse was waning, but he still enjoyed Ace and it will be hard for him to understand and accept.  Some of life’s lessons are so hard.  Like Rachel said when she called this morning, it’s hard to see God’ reasons at a time like this.  I struggle with this all the time.  Please remember us in your prayers and say an extra one for Josh and Rachel.  As for me I must get myself in control, Rachel is coming by to tell Josh in the morning on the way home from OSU.  It will be a bad morning. 

I’m asking all of you that pray, to do so for my grandson Josh’s horse Ace.  I know that this is sort of a strange request, but  the horse is sick and needs prayers for recovery.  Josh is relatively new in his faith and I really believe that this could be a challenge to him. Josh is only 12 and has already lost one of his horses, I know if we all ask for healing that it will happen.  Thank you