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I’m trying hard, I’m eating the right things and that is keeping me level, but my motivation for exercise is at an all time low.  We’ve been working outside when we can and we planted some more of our garden and that was good for me.  I just can’t get moving on the exercise thing.  I know I need to get moving, if I want to lose some more , but I’m not getting it done.  I don’t have any excuses you guys, I’m just not doing it.   Today will be an perfect time to get in some kind of exercise in the house, it cold, and we had a little bit of snow, Tony is gone for a few hours, but I haven’t done anything except talk on the phone.  What do you all do when your motivation runs low?  I need some advice on getting jump started.  HELP!!! 

Ok guys I try not to get on here and yell to loud, but bear with me today please.  I’m so pissed at my husband right now I’d like to kill him.  I won’t go into details, too many, but the upshot is I’M MAD.  I was helping him and couldn’t get something done that he thought I should and we got into a shouting match and it went down hill from there.  Now I’ll be upset for the rest of the day and he is already over and done with it.  And I  might add asking me to do something else for him to “save him the trouble, so he can get some rest”.  AHHHHH—scream stomp feet!!!   MEN! is it just mine?    Ok, I’ve breathed deep and done my meditation, and now I’ve vented to you all so maybe just maybe I won’t have to visit you from jail. 

Spring break is over and it’s back to school for daughter and grandson.  We all enjoyed their time off.  Josh got to camp out and go fishing with his Papa and then it rained so we got to burn brush.  Of course Tony over did and now his back is sore, and he is majorly GRUMPY.  Nobody does grumpy like my T.  We all took a vote and decided to lock him in the bedroom until he feels better.   I finally just had to say ”hey, sorry you feel bad, but it is not my fault” since then he has at least tried t be nicer.                                                                    My daughter is driving me crazy again, I love her , but sometimes I wish she wouldn’t share so much info with me.  Her live in boyfriend is a nice guy, but doesn’t have much on the ball.  Not a self-starter and is pretty much content to let her do the driving.  She is getting tired of him not stepping up and helping around the place and taking care of things.  She teaches in an alternative school and has a side business selling horses.  Lots of work in the last and lots of stress in the first.  She want JH to step up and help get things done around the house and barn and he likes to sleep.  He says he loves his 2 kids, but hasn’t seen them since Christmas (for 2 days), waited until this Thursday then got all in a tissy because break was almost over and he hadn’t made arrangements for the kids.  All kinds of stuff that should and need to be taken care of and he just doesn’t get it done.  I just try to keep my mouth shut, because if I say anything then she has to defend him, so keep mouth closed.  I think I’d be better off not knowing.  Remember those smokers wrinkles I was talking about? this is what causes them I know it!    Speaking of them, I haven’t had a chance to take more pics to do a comparison, but I will.  I think maybe those creams are doing some good.  We’ll see.                        I hope you all had a good break if it was break time for you and I hope you have a really good weekend.               See ya. 

Ya’ll know that I’m nearly 60, never made any big deal about that, most of the time I don’t feel 60 sometimes I feel what I think being 90 must feel like.  I’ve never sweated much about getting older, I always liked what my husband says “It better than the alternative!”   It’s aggravating that I can’t do as much, or that things hurt a little  when I do to much, mostly I still do what I’ve always done.  I don’t think it’s fair that by the time you are smart enough and have enough time to really enjoy life, you have to bother with the aches and pains that come with getting older.  Having said this, the one thing that really bothers me is what I have let the sun do to my face.  I’ve always been an outside person, and I wasn’t really good about taking good care of my complexion, so it’s not as great as it could be.  I don’t have a lot of wrinkles, except around my mouth, what I call smokers wrinkles.  Now I’ve never smoked, I blame mine on squeezing my lips together to keep words from coming out when my husband and I are at odds.  (My mom had the meanest mouth and I swore that I’d never say things when I was mad, just to hurt feeling).  Too much info, I know, anyway, I’ve decided to see if some of this stuff will work on my wrinkles, I really wanted to see if it worked.  So I bravely scrapped back my hair, turned on the bright lights in the bathroom and actually took pictures, unvarnished, no makeup, close up pictures!  NO I WILL NOT POST THEM HERE, don’t want anyone to be scared to death.  He! he!  I’m going to take another bunch next Monday and do a 2 week comparison.    I was really surprised at how I looked in those pictures, I guess it goes back to the image you have of yourself in your head.   I don’t know about the rest of you, but for me, I avoid cameras like the plague, I hate to see my self.  I have had this brilliant idea, I’m going to buy a full length mirror and mount it on the back of the bathroom door, that way I can SEE how I look and I think I’ll be encouraged to stick to my plan and work hard to lose this weight if I actually, truly have a good look at me every evening or morning.  That or I’ll get so mad I’ll throw something at it!  We’ll see.  I’ll let you all know if my creams work.    

Yuck!  Down here in Okieland it’s been in the high 70’s for a few weeks now, then last night–bam blue norther!  We had to split more wood for our stove and break out the horse blanket one more time.  We spent all of Tuesday planting onions and radishes, then putting in milo food plots for the deer and turkey.  Let me tell you that crawling around on your knees to plant onions makes you feel every year that you have!  Anyway it’s done and we even got a little rain last night, so it was a good thing we got it done.   I know it doesn’t compare to what has been going on up north, wow talk about BAD WEATHER, but I’m a sissy, I really should live some where that just has spring and fall.  Ha!  Next week is spring break here and my daughter and grandson are out at the same time this year, we’re planning on doing some  trail riding at the lake and Tony and Josh are fishing and camping out in the RV.  So I hope this is all the cold weather we’re having.  Looks like we might get enough rain to get the burn ban lifted, so it’s back to burning brush piles for us.  It’s good exercise and it gets me out of the house.  Don’t I have an exciting life?   I have to say that given a choice, I’d choose this every time.  I don’t like drama.   I’m doing ok with my weight loss program, holding my own, and getting in some exercise, what I need help on is how to make myself drink more water.  I just don’t like water, if I’m thirsty I’ll drink tea mostly.  I have weaned off of soft drinks, that was hard.  I don’t even keep them in the house anymore, if they aren’t here I can’t drink them.  I do like flavored water, but I wonder if that as good for you as just plain of water, some is better than none I guess.   I better go throw a log on the fire, you all stay safe and warm. 

 I just wanted to come by and say hi to every one and see if I could post some pictures of what I’ve  been doing lately 

This is Tony    on the dozer, and

one of the  brush piles going up in a blaze of glory!                   This what we love to see when we sit on the front porch and drink coffee.    We had it easy this last week, it’s too dry and windy to burn, so I’ve  cleaned and caught up on home chores.  Haven’t had one exciting thing to tell you all about.    Even when I don’t have anything to say, I read your blogs and keep up with what’s going on.                        

Josh’s baseball games start this weekend, yea!!! we do love to watch him play ball.  

Have a great week end.